Daily update for my Boys 3 April 2014





Good Afternoon Little Men…

How are my Champs today ? I hope fantastic …..

It feels like it has been an extremely long day , I think it might be because I kept waking up last night , I had to close my window at bed time as it started raining really hard again and as you might know , I do not like sleeping with the window shut , thus the restless night I think… And yet today is a lovely bright sunny day here , a little cool but still very nice …..

I have been out to town for some shopping and to go pay the bills , my own fault I guess I should have set these up for internet payments …maybe next month , lol ….

Been doing lots of reading today also on PAS and the impact it will have on you both as you grow up ….also realised it’s been 4 months now since I have seen you two muppets last ….that’s the longest it’s been in the past year …made me really sad , but seems that is how things will be from now on ….I think I know in my heart that you both have long forgotten about me as I have only seen you 10 hours in the past year , and I don’t remember anything much before the age of 5 ,so can only take it that you both will be the same and I am sure you have had so much change around you in the past year that I have not been a part off …….

Some days I think to myself that I am a total nutter for writing this blog but then again it gives me a couple of minutes each day that it feels like we are in fact spending some time together even if the conversation is one way traffic or a monologue as they say …..let’s hope you both understand all of this one day when the time comes …….

The weekend is here again tomorrow also , I have the Big birthday on Saturday and looks like I will have some work stuff to sort on Sunday if all goes to plan…..

So Champs I hope you both will have a great Friday …lots of learning and plenty of giggles …….

I will see you both a little later then under our big old green tree in dream land , I think I need massive dream bear cuddles and smiles tonight ….

Night , night Muppets ….happy dreams of better days ….

I love you both This much ; ( see picture , lol) — Dad xx



Birth Certificates for Oliver James Ferreira and Oscar Alexander Ferreira


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Hello Little men ,

Please find above your Birth Certificates , should your paid surrogate Jayne Elizabeth Ferreira aka as Jayne Elizabeth McClure , change your Family name I will repost these weekly and tag with both names to ensure you will know the Truth one day ….

I should also get your South African passports in the next couple of weeks so will post those on here also with your copy UK passports I have now and your confirmation of duel citizenship.

Please also note the date in April 2013 when these certificates were issued, the Court and your paid surrogate really underestimate my intelligence .

Love you always Little Men ..

Dad xx

Daily update for my Boys 11 Jan 2014



Good afternoon you two !

Hope my Champs are doing well today …..

I have had a bit of a mind numbing day with all the legal stuff I have been sent for our next Court Date in Feb , I am just absolutely overwhelmed with how many children and mums and dads in the UK are having the same battle as us 3 but as I have said if we can make it better or different for one child or adult then it has been worth all the effort.

Its great how much you learn from other peoples cases and see the wrongs in your own when other people point it out to you but as the saying goes the wheel turns be it slowly but it does that I believe with all my heart.

I am also about eight pages into ‘our story’ for the UK documentary I have been asked to participate in I need to try and send the draft outline to the producer chap next week , they have asked if I want my name and face disguised while recording but I have told them I have nothing to hide , should I then end up in jail our case will become a criminal matter which will allow for even more exposure of the family law legal system in the UK , so I guess a small price to pay… O and I can then post it on YouTube for you both to watch one day if you like , maybe it will help you understand that I have and never will give you both up no matter how hard people and the system try……

Hope you two had a fun day doing whatever you might have done …. As long as it was fun and safe then I am happy ….

Can’t believe we are one week further into this mess I guess it will be a year before we know it and I assume we have many , many mores years of this battle still to come the way things stand now …but you know what boys it will all be worth it at the end of the day , just really sorry that you both have to suffer alone with the people who surround you …..keep strong …this too will pass as they say ……

Well my little O’s I hope you two are planning a huge Sunday lunch feast , with a long nap and lots of play time for tomorrow ……will be thinking of you both……

Boys I will see you both under our big old green tree in dream land tonight …. Keep me a nice spot …. Can’t wait for my bear cuddles and smiles….

Night , night little men , happy big Sunday lunch dreams for you both…

Miss and love you both oil tankers full and more …..

Love you pals ….


Daily update for my Boys 10 Jan 2014



Hello little Muppets,

Hope you two are on top of the world today and doing great…..

The two pictures above made me smile , the baby with the dog is six months old and he is now already sitting at the front door at home time waiting for his Daddy …… Reminded me of how happy you two use to be when I got home from work , you would hardly let me get in the door ….happy days , hey little men , but I assume you both again will not have any memory of that any more , if you look in the picture archive on the blog there is a picture of you both sitting on me on the stairs one morning when I came back from a work trip to Turkey, you both would not let me go …. Makes me happy and sad thinking about that , can’t really explain ,guess it is part of my so called personality disorder , or I personally think it’s called being a Daddy who loves his little boys with all his heart…even if the legal system says I am a freak for showing any emotion…..

So I have done absolutely nothing today … Not a thing , well , I did shower , brush my teeth and get dressed , don’t worry , I am not losing it just yet…. But that was the extent of my activities…. I guess that’s all part of my new life as a person devoting his all into trying to get a normal relationship with you both …google is my best friend , lol …..think I am developing iPad thumb …lol

Oupa is still not doing well but is refusing to go back to hospital so Ouma and might have to drag him there later if he stays the same , not sure what is going on but have never seen him like this before , Ouma and I had a good giggle last night as his nurse told us the name of some tablets that will help with his ears so I went to get them yesterday but it says it is for motion sickness so Ouma and I are not convinced they will work but he swears by them as he had them once before … So Ouma is giving them to him 3 times a day , so now this afternoon he tells us he is feeling better but we think that is just a ploy so we don’t take him back to hospital , I know we are joking about it but he is really not well….

I guess you two little monkeys are in school today , if you are I hope you had lots of fun and learned heaps …. Would love to one day again see you both interact with all your little friends also not just us 3 locked in a room with a person watching us ….scary if you write it down , but that’s what we have got for NOW ! …… NOT much longer boys that I promise ……

I hope you two have lots of plans for the weekend and that the weather will be nice and not cold and wet….. So you can maybe go see the outside animals at the Zoo…..would be nice I think…

Still no news about your operation Oliver so as I have said before we are all thinking of you and hope you are safe , in one piece and it all went well or will go well , in our thoughts you both are each day all the time …..

Boys as always I hope to see you both tonight under our big old green tree in dream land …can’t wait to give you both a big mountain bear cuddle …..

Night night , my little Jungle book lovers , sweet jungle dreams ….

Miss and love you both more that the size of the Amazon jungle …..

Love you boys …..always …

Dad xx

Daily update for my Boys 8 Jan 2014


Hello my little O’s

How are you both doing today ? I hope fantastic……

Well Champs I had a busy day running in and out of meetings and even had time to get my sat nav updated with the right maps so hopefully I will not be driving around blind and on my gut to find places… Lol don’t giggle you two as I told you before all the streets have new names here so it’s been a nightmare to say the least ….

Looks like we are in for a big storm shortly , the sky is grey and the clouds are hanging low and heavy… Think we are in for a cloud burst African style…..

Sorry I said I would do a video for you today but it is so dark and the video quality looks really poor if I try and do it indoors with a light on, the joys of working on an iPad I guess…. So I will try tomorrow again when I get back home…

I wonder what you two muppets have been doing today , this weather reminded me when you came to meet me after work in Uckfield and we went to play in the park near my office before going for tee at McDonalds…fun times hey little men… Maybe one day again who knows…

Ouma and Oupa asked that I say hello from them also and to tell you they miss and love you lots….

I still need to try and get them to make a video for you also …maybe this weekend…

Tried to ring the hospital today Oliver but they kept me on hold for ages , guess they don’t know what to say … I will send them a letter later this week again if they don’t come back to me as I would still like to know that you are well and safe and what they intend to do…. Guess this will end up in yet another court battle to enquire about your well being …. Just know you and Oscar are in my heart and thoughts each day all the time ……..

I need to put some reports together for work tonight so that will keep me busy I guess…

Boys as each and every night that has gone past and that is still to come in the future I will see you both a little later under our big old green tree in dreamland , remember your raincoats as I think we might need them tonight….can’t wait to see you both and give you both a huge dream cuddle….

Night , night little muppets , dreams of happy times and the future….

Miss and love you both around the world and back a trillion times , no more….

Love you my little men…

Dad xx

Daily update for my Boys 7 Jan 2014


Hello Champs!

Hope you two are oki doki today …..

The picture today I think is very true , I know it says Nanna instead of Grandad like in our story but I feel the message is the same at the end of the day…

It was a really nice day here again you two muppets would have had so much fun playing outside in the garden or on the drive with your big boy cars ….. I guess by now you both are foot pushing the cars yourselves not like last year in Horsham when you Oliver wanted to sit in the car and Oscar you kept climbing on the back so I could push you both up and down the drive …makes me smile just thinking about it … Was great fun …but again I assume you two will have no memory of those days anymore ….. Breaks my heart to be honest….

I don’t know what you two have been getting up to today but I really hope it was fun , safe and loads of happy times…..

I have had a day just full of email back and forth trying to set up a serious of meetings , it’s funny how once you think you have a clear and logical plan that should work for all parties someone always has to put a spanner in the works ….lol guess we will get there in the end ….

I am going to the City tomorrow for meetings so that should be great fun with all the traffic again, I think I was use to the days here when the traffic was manageable but that sure is not the case anymore ….it also does not help that I still don’t have my sat nav’s new maps and have to use Oupa’s that I think is 7 years old , the issue is they have changed all the street names here the last couple of years so I am a little snookered to be honest ….least I am getting lots of sight seeing and ending up in places I never knew existed …lol

Ouma had a look today in all the Court papers for me Oliver but all it says is you are having your operation in January so I have no clue little man , but just know as I said last night I am thinking of you each day and sending you huge cyber cuddles and hope it all goes well and that you will be ok , I will try and phone the hospital tomorrow but I guess as before they will refuse to speak to me , it’s 4 months now and their legal department still did not respond … So it seems they also support the parental alienation same as the Court and Cafcass….what to do , as they say ….

Sorry pals I think I am rambling , lol , must admit I am tired today …been a long one …

O I will try and do a video update tomorrow night again when I get back home ……

Well little men I will see you both a little later under our big old green tree in dream land , keep me a spot as it might be busy tonight you never know …lol, can’t wait for my dream cuddles and smiles….

Night , night monkeys ….. Happy dreams of better days …….

I miss and love you both A380’s full and more ……..

Love you boys …

Dad xx

Daily update for my Boys 6 Jan 2014


Hello little men !

Hope you two are doing well….

I have just seen the picture above on Facebook and thought , how true … Makes me sad knowing that is a fact and that I am missing this whole part of your lives…….but what to do as they say ….

I have been on the phone so much today feels like my ear is going to fall off! Feels like I am a telephone marketer , lol ….. But all and all very productive calls all of them.

I was well surprised how quick I was able to sort the stuff at the government this morning , I think getting there and parking was more stressful but least it’s done now..

Been planning all the travels for Jan , I know that sounds easy but trying to book hotels , cars and flights for people coming from different places is not so much fun…. Thank goodness for a switched on travel agent…. I hope to get it all confirmed tomorrow… Then I guess it’s all go for the new project….

Did you two have a nice day at school ? I hope so , must have been fun I am sure..

Oliver I think you have your operation next week but I am not sure of the date , just want to say I will be thinking of you all the time and hope that you will be safe and that it all goes well…. Oscar you need to play nice when Olibear comes back from hospital as I am sure he will be sore so you will have to give his some space to recover , I am not sure when you are going back for your ears but I hope they are doing fine now also…. I am so sorry that I am not there to hold your hands and give you a cuddle ……..breaks my heart……

Been nice and cool here today which was good , I am not coping well with the heat at the moment not sure why , maybe old age , lol don’t giggle you two it happens to all of us ! ……

Well boys I will see you both a little later under our big old green tree in dream land ….can’t wait to see you both and know that you are ok ….O and don’t forget my double cuddles please champs …

I miss and love you both so much , this emptiness in my heart just gets bigger each day ……

Night , night pals , happy back to school dreams …..

Love you both a billion trillion times ….

Love you ,

Dad xx

Daily update for my Boys 5 Jan 2014


Hello Little O’s ,

How are my little Champs doing today ? I hope very , very well…

The picture today is care Oupa and Ouma .. It looks like you two I thought , Oupa said he can’t wait to go ride with you both on his bike …. Or yours for that matter…..

I think you are almost at the age now that you will start giving the trike ago by yourselves not just sit and try and move the steering wheel like you use to do in Horsham when we walked up to go feed those 2 goats and the ducks on the fishing farm … Great memories but I guess you both have now long forgotten about those days …….

O I am doing not so well to get my wifi thing sorted , went today and now Vodacom is shut today so I assume they are still offline … Not good but what to do as they say ….lol

Was my last morning today of only getting up after 8 am , realised today that it has now been more than 10 days since I wore shoes or a watch , been flops , short ant T shirts all they way , guess that’s what holidays are all about…..

It’s once again a great Summers day here not to hot but bright clear blue sky’s ….makes the world seem a better place days like these …… Really hope you two get to experience it one day …… I guess we can dream , hey boys ……

I take it you two are having a fun filled lazy day at home today … Hope you are having a blast ! ….

I see you two are also now part of the under 3 iPad / tablet generation , want to get you both iPad mini’s when I maybe get to see you in Feb but looks like you are sorted with that already so I guess I will have to come up with a new plan ….lol

I have a busy day tomorrow lots of running around in town with Government departments , not as much fun as it sounds , lol that I can promise you boys …. But it has to be done, at least all the bank stuff in now sorted so progress has been made , even over the holidays ….

I hope you two will have a very nice , fun and busy day at school tomorrow , sure it will be nice to see all your little friends and teachers again … Lots of happy learning pals ….

Boys from tomorrow I will be writing later in the evening so hope to catch you both before bedtime , but let’s see how the day goes …

As each night boys I will see you both a little later under our big old green tree in dream land , so looking forward to my double O dream cuddles ….

Miss and love you both more then you will ever understand …..

Night , night muppets happy back to school dreams …..

Love you both more than ThiiiiiiiSssssss much ….

Love you boys …

Dad xx