Daily update for my Boys 28 Dec 2013

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Hello little Men !

How are my champs today on this lovely Sunny Saturday afternoon ? I hope very well..

The picture today I saw on Facebook and thought it was very true words thus I wanted to share it with you both……

I just got home , Ouma and I have been on an outing since early this morning , we went to a place with loads of lights and bells … Lol Ouma likes going from time to time , I have not been for years but I must admit I am exhausted .. Lol sure I am going to sleep like a baby tonight ..

Looks like we are going to get a huge storm later today but it was really nice and hot today , I must say I was surprised how few cars were on the road….Guess everybody is on holiday now , so happy days…

Not sure what you two muppets did today but I hope it was fun and lots of happy times…. Don’t have any plans for tomorrow so might just go to the mall to watch a movie , I remember as as child we always use to go watch the new South African comedy movie that came out each year around this time , they were done by a guy called Leon Schuster , I must see if I can get you these on DVD for when you are a little older , parts are in Afrikaans that I guess you will not ever understand but a lot is in English and they are great fun to watch… Will let you know if I am able to get my hands on some of these for you…

Can’t believe it’s only a week then it’s back to work again , my schedule for Jan looks pretty full already , I need to book flight and hotels etc. I guess next week …

I hope you two will have a lovely lazy and relax Sunday tomorrow , I will try and do a video for you tomorrow afternoon again , might even try and see if I can get a Ouma and Oupa to make a guest star appearance … I know they are dying to say hello to you both but not sure if they are camera shy … Lol

I guess you two are still having loads of fun with all your cool new stuff , I still don’t know if you got the train town thing , as I said it was not your Christmas gift but still would have loved to see the smiles on your faces if you did get it, knowing how much you both loved the one I have at my house… I really hope you did get it boys ….

So pals as each and every night I can’t wait to see you both a little later under our big old green tree , might need your rain coats , lol , can’t wait to say hello to you both and give you each a huge double cuddle … And to tell you how much I miss and love you both…

Night , night champs , happy , dry place dreams please !

Miss and love you both THiiiiiiiiiiiiissssssssssss much , lol maybe you two will know one day what I mean when I say this …..

Love you so much muppets ….

Dad xx

Daily update for my Boys 27 Dec 2013

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Hello Muppets !

How are my champs doing today ? I hope fantastic ….

Well I can’t believe it , the cool weather here is still keeping , I think today is actually a day you need to wear a jumper here .. It’s great , so much better than the heat we normally have this time of the year .. I guess you two are still stuck in the house watching the rain fall.. Never mind , I am sure you are having a fun time all the same in your playroom….

Not a massive amount of news here boys today I am afraid , the most excitement I had was to go to the mall and charge my mobile wifi Vodcom thing … Lol not as exciting as it sounds that I can promise you both .. Lol

O the picture is once again care of Ouma from her wildlife collection , I hope you both like it..

Had a long chat to an old friend from Dubai just now , he has been fighting for 2 years here to see his little girl ,seems very similar to our story only difference is that he is English fighting the South African system but it is very clear that the one sided discrimination approach is the same here as in England for the foreign parent ,guess the rules of the game are the same no matter where you are , he did say something that I agree with 100% , people under estimate an opponent that has nothing to lose but only stand to gain or better the level of contact they have been offered with their children …. Very true words I must say …..

So I wonder what you two have been doing today , whatever it is I hope you are safe , warm, cared for and happy as little men should be …

O before I forget I guess you two would have seen I got your YouTube channel working and was able to post you a little video clip , now that I know it works I will send you a video every couple of days I guess , I see a lot of people have watched it already … O your Wikipedia page is also up so your digital online profile is growing well now , makes me happy to know that when you are a little older you will have all these things to read and watch should you choose to do so …..

Well champs I hope you two will have a fun weekend full of smiles and happy times whatever you have planned ….

As always pals I hope to see you both later under our big old green tree in dream land … Can’t wait to see you both and give you a double dream cuddle …. And hear all about your day ….

Night , night champs , sweet happy place dreams please ….

I miss and love you both huge truck loads with trailers full….

Love you both always ……

Dad xx

Daily update for my Boys 26 Dec 2013

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Hello little Monkeys !

How are you both doing today ? I hope great …

Well boys I have made you a video update today but am not able to upload it on the blog for some strange reason , guess I have some google-ing to do to figure out what I am doing wrong ..,so watch this space … Lol

The picture today is care of Ouma again , she thought you two would love it !

So I guess you two are having a super day playing with all your cool new stuff.. I hope you are sharing with each other also …. Lol I know you both are not that great yet at the sharing thing but I am pretty sure you will get there in the long run….

It’s been a lovely cool day here again , must admit it works for me rather than being boiling hot…

We have just had a lazy day here to be honest in front of the telly , Oupa loves bait cars but luckily it has not been on yet today … Lol

Not sure what you both are doing the next couple of days but I hope the weather is ok for you to maybe go to the Zoo or play park for some outside fun also as little men should..

O before I forget I bought you some cool wildlife DVDs today , you should get them next week I guess , all the little ones here love them so I hope you two will like them also …

So I did not get any pictures of you both on Christmas Day , I guess I should have known it will not happen but no worries I have my memories and I know you both would have had a lovely time …

I see there is still loads of houses without power in the UK , I hope you two are not effected by the storms and that you are happy and safe …….and well looked after…

Was really looking forward to sending you the video today , really sorry I was not able to do so but as I said I will keep trying….

Well boys I hope you have loads of fun the rest of this afternoon , I am sure you must be well busy with all the excitement of the past two days…..Just sorry again I was not allowed to see you or speak with you both … Maybe next year hey boys ….who knows…

As always my little champs I really hope to see you both a little later under our big old green tree in dream land , so keen to see you both and give you a dream cuddle ……and tell you how much I miss and love you both….

Night , night monkeys … Happy place dreams full of fun and maybe even us 3 spending some normal time together …..

Love you both to the moon and back a billion times…..

Love you pals …. Always..

Dad xx

Daily update for my Boys 25 Dec 2013

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Hello little Santa fans !

I guess you two must just be sitting down for you Christmas dinner , we have had ours already , must admit I think I ate way to much already not sure if I am going to have space for the peppermint crisp tart I made yesterday …. Just a pity you two are not going to be able to have a bite as I am sure you two would have loved it !

So I guess you two must be two very lucky happy little boys with all the cool stuff that Santa came to drop off for you last night …. I hope you have helped to clean up all the wrapping paper after you have opened all your gifts….

We went to Jaco ( my brother) and my Ouma’s graves to go put some fresh flowers on .. Can’t believe it is 5 years already in March since they both have passed away … Feels longer or no maybe a shorter time not sure , it’s funny to explain , I guess you two will understand what I mean one day..

It’s lovely and cool here today but I must admit this is not normal for this time of the year , we normally sweat like overly beefy ladies at a rave on Christmas Day , lol

Boys I so hope that you both are ok and that you are having a loving and festive day all and all .. I guess the next big one now is New Year’s Eve , I personally think the hype for this is over rated but maybe that is just my age showing … Lol

I hope you two are being good little men and having a little nap after dinner as I am sure you must be well worn out from all the excitement of the day …

The pictures above are the ones mum or her official spokes person emailed me last night of you both .. Least I know you got to sit on the Big mans lap … Looks like you had a nice time Oscar , Oliver it does not look like you were to sure about the strange old man , lol… Made me smile all the same ……

Boys I can’t believe Christmas has come and indeed almost gone and that this week is 10 months since I have been allowed to spend time with you both in a normal environment , I guess the realisation of the fact that all I am now to you both is a person who’s name is Dad , I guess like any stranger that you meet… Breaks my heart but this is what mum and Steve wanted so I guess I have to be happy with scraps and bones they throw me from time to time ….I am still and will always be very sorry that they believe what they are doing is the best for you in the long term … Boy o boy are they wrong but I guess only you both and time will teach them this very hard lesson….

Boys as always I hope to see you both under our big old green tree tonight , can’t wait to here all about your fun day , I am sure you will have loads to tell me and I can’t wait to give you both a Christmas dream double bear cuddle …..

Night , night little men , be safe , be happy and be yourselves … Always

Love you both around the world and back a billion times ….. Miss you ten times more than that ….

Love you pals ….

Dad xx

Merry Christmas Champs ! Love and miss you loads xxx 25 Dec 2013

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Morning boys , I know it’s 6 am but I am sure you both are up and about to see if Santa came !

Just want to wish you both a very Merry Christmas and tell you both how much I love you and miss you and sorry again that I am not allowed to share in this special day with you both!

Thank you for the little email I assume mum or her spokes person sent last night from you both , broke my heart even more !

Have a fun day boys , play your little hearts out !

Love you both always ….

Dad xx

A Christmas wish for my little men – 24 Dec 2013

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Hello my little O’s ,

I know it’s early but I guess as today goes on it will become much harder to write this post to you both…

I hope you both are very well today and well excited for tomorrow ….

My Christmas wish for my Oscar and Oliver

1. I wish for you both to be happy always
2. I wish for you both to be safe always
3. I wish for you both to always love each other and be best friends
4. I wish for you both to maybe understand this current mess…. One day
5. I wish for you both to be able to forgive mum and I for this mess you are stuck in .. One day
6. I wish for you both to be healthy strong little men always
7. I wish for you both to always keep smiling as you do now
8. I wish for you both to learn sharing is not the worst thing in the world
9. I wish for you both to know you are part of two families who love and adore you not just one
10. I wish for you both to know I have never walked away from you no matter what people tell you
11. I wish for you both to learn , love and live like their is no tomorrow always
12. I wish for you both that all your little dreams come true always
13. I wish for you both to know that you both will always have my heart even if I might never be in yours
14. I wish for you both to know each day how much you are loved and missed by people all over the world
15. I wish for you both to learn that people are not always what they seem , however much you would like to believe different, listen to your gut it will always be right , I unfortunately did not do that when I met you mum and her father …. Look where that left me …
16. I wish for you both to always believe in Christmas and magic , dream , imagine as nothing is impossible if you believe in it or want it bad enough…..
17. I wish for you both that mum will allow you to have a puppy … You two will have so much fun with a little friend to protect you and be by your sides…..

I think my final wish for you both this year is that the 3 of us get to spend some normal natural time together but then again this might just be my so called personality order talking, lol

Boys I hope you are happy and well looked after and having loads of fun as it would break my heart even more if I have to know you are not……

The picture above I thought would make you both giggle , I hope you both have set up all your spy equipment as you might be able to get a glimpse of Santa and his gang when they come to see you both tonight …. Make sure the milk is warm and the carrots are fresh please….lol

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The 2nd picture I found of us 3 on your first Christmas Eve , made me smile .. Good memories of us 3 boys …..

Well boys I will wish you both a huge massive gigantic Merry Christmas for tonight and I guess tomorrow also … I miss and love you both so much , I am sorry again for not being allowed to see you both or speak with you or in fact send you a little gift but this is what mum wants , so I guess nothing us 3 can do about it for now ……..

Be happy , be festive and have fun champs ….

O and you need to go to bed early tonight or else Santa might not stop at mums house …. No monkey business please……lol

I hope to see you both a little later tonight in your new pjs under our big old green Christmas tree , can’t wait to see you both and wish you both a dream Merry Christmas and give you both a huge double dream cuddle …..

Night , night pals , happy Christmas dreams ….

Miss and love you both so , so very much !…

Once again pals I would like to wish you both a very , very Merry Christmas ….wherever you are being kept hostage at the moment….

Love you so much champs …

Dad xx

Daily update for my Boys 23 Dec 2013

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Hello little Champs ,

How are my muppets doing today ? I guess well excited and festive ….

The picture today is to show you both the Big man is all packed and seems to be on the move already to make his way to Chester , I hope you two are ready for him …. You might even get to see him , who knows…..

Just realised its a month today from the big 39th birthday for me … Scary to think I am that old already but then I guess if you take all the abuse and domestic violence and intimidation , blackmail etc. I had to endure from your mum and Steve and Simon the past 5 years no wonder I look 60 , lol , but least I can say I am a survivor and I know they will never break me no matter how much they as a family try and gang up on me and tell people only one side of a story and leave out the real facts … But at least I know when you are old enough you will be able to read the almost 8000 pages of documents and make up your own minds on things like why Cafcass gave mum 3 months to sober up before they did her alcohol testing ? Because they knew the test can only look back 4 weeks ? Or why because she says she takes loads of pain killers everyday they decided to not test her as they knew the test would show the true result …. All little things mum and Steve are not telling people on Facebook …. Selective reporting as the psychologist said ..lol

O I had to go to the bank this morning , bad idea I guess the whole country is trying to get cash out of the bank for Christmas , I think we forget how busy the banks are here but I must admit they are a 10000 years ahead of the UK and Dubai banking system , o and you deal with people which is always nice ….

So not sure what you two monkeys have been doing today but I hope you are both wearing your raincoats as I see the weather is not so great in the North now for the next couple of days… So I hope you both a dry ,warm, safe and well cared for as it’s not a nice time of the year to struggle while all the adults around you just want to get drunk all the time ….

Have you two been messing with the gifts under the tree yet ? I am sure if you take the wrapping of at the back mum will not notice ….lol

Tomorrow night is the big night for us here in Africa so please know you will be in our hearts and thoughts even more then what you are each day…. I am just so sorry that we are not able to say hello to you both or wish you both a Very Merry Christmas , but I guess that is what mum and Steve wants so they can tell you , ‘see he does not care about you ‘ boys you have no idea how wrong they will be when they tell you that tomorrow night … But not a thing we can do about it as you two are their hostages and will be I guess for the next couple of years and till you are able to stand up against them all ….

Well boys I hope you will have a little fun and festive spirit over the next couple of days and just know they can’t not control or dictate to you forever as they have tried to do with me and the rest of their family … As Steve and mum says the truth always prevails ……

As always my little men I can’t wait to see you both a little later under our big old green tree in dream land , I will be waiting to give you both the biggest bear cuddles in the world … And to tell you how much I miss and love you both……

Night , night pals , happy dry , warm ,safe festive dreams……

I love you both more than life and always will….

Love you my little O’s….

Dad xx