Hello Muppets ,

How are my champs doing on this lovely day ? I hope well….

I must say boys if I do not see the inside of a shop again until next year I would be very happy indeed … Lol , guess it’s all part of the holidays , seems that everybody that have nothing to do is doing it in the mall….lol

I am going for dinner tonight with my friends Brett and Sanet at a very nice little Italian in Brooklyn , am looking forward to seeing them as I have only been able to catch up once with them since I have been in and out of South Africa so much the past two months.

I hope to see the Marx and Jenkings families also before Christmas so I can do my Santa drop for all their little ones …. Guess they are the only little ones I can spoil a bit this year seeing that I am not allowed to spoil you both or even send you a little gift as per mums instructions … As I said I will keep the I owe you’s until we meet again and then I will try and make it up to you both as best as I can.

I wonder what you two have been doing today …. I have this picture in my head of mum trying to get you two to sit in the shopping trolley at Tesco but you two are not having it and want to explore and look at all the cool things in the shop …..part of being little boys , so I am sure a little bit running wild in public is not the worst thing in the world , hey boys …. As long as you are safe and having a giggle … All good !

Can’t believe it is weekend again , the weeks are flying by , can’t believe it has already almost been a month again since I saw you both or were allowed to speak with you … Breaks my heart if I am honest as I know you are growing and changing so much each day and I am missing it all because mum and Steve says so , really , really sad if you ask me , but hey I guess by now I should know I have no say when it comes to you both as this is what Steve makes mum do to ensure she can live of him because she does not want to work and would rather let Steve run her life and yours …

I also find it very amusing that Steve is still getting your Aunty Sheila to follow your blog by email , and this after I told her I want nothing to do with any of them in my life again when she tried to add me as a friend on Facebook again after I deleted her,maybe when you are a little older you can show them all that your blog is now ranked number 1 on google and bing so they all can just go to the page and read it, same as I can see who reads it daily , for people that don’t want me to have contact with you they sure all are great followers of your blog , lol guess I must have known they will keep stalking me online as they have done over the past 10 months.

Well boys whatever you both have planned for the weekend I hope it’s fun and safe , I hope you have a warm meal that’s not out of a microwave as that is all you ever got from mum as she always said she has no time …. Always time for a glass of wine or large Brandy ,but never time for a home cooked meal for you two …. Guess that will never change ….. Really sorry you both are stuck in this horrible unnatural environment mum and Steve is hell bent on keeping you in….

Boys as always I can’t wait to see you both a little later under our big old green tree , so I can see you both are safe and looked after , can’t wait to give you both a huge cuddle and tell you that I love you both so very much….

Night , night pals sweet happy place dreams of us 3 getting to spend some normal time one day ….

Love you both to the moon and back and miss you more ….

Love you boys ….always

Dad xxx

Hello little O’s ,

How are my champs today ? I hope fantastic…..

Boys the picture is care of Ouma again , she thought you two would enjoy seeing the lioness with her two little cubs( we named them Oscar and Oliver)Makes me sad knowing you two will never get to see or experience scenes like that in its true sense in places like the Kruger National Park where these pictures are taken… I must say it is one of the most humbling experiences being so up and close to wildlife in their natural environment…. Maybe one day hey boys , who knows what the future holds for us 3.

I went with Ouma today to the hospital again, I guess this was her last trip now for this year…made me smile as the service level seems to be just as poor as the NHS , but I guess in the UK you can’t complain as you get it for free, not so much the case here … But again I guess that’s Africa things get done on African time …lol

Ouma then took me to this huge butchery near the hospital for some biltong , I think mum went with us once also before you two were born , the shop is full of old antique things , loads and loads of toy cars from all over the world , I think you two would have gone mad for it and would have had such a fun time playing around with all the cool stuff….

Also got the email confirmation yesterday that my container have now left the UK , looking forward to unpacking my stuff as I have been living out of a travel bag now since 4 October already … I am all for traveling lite but I guess you always need or look for stuff when you can’t get to it… Lol

I am sorry but your other train table town thing I guess you will now never get to see again as it was packed in the container … Will have to see in Jan when I get the container who has space and little ones that will love and enjoy it as much as you two did ….don’t worry I will make sure it goes to a good loving home , at least that way it will bring some joy to a little one…..

It’s quite cool here today , it rained all of last night again, still think you two would have had so much fun here this time of the year. Oupa had a bee in his bonnet this morning that we should go to the beach for a couple of days next week but I must admit Ouma and I are not sure that is the best idea this time of the year as the holiday towns are crazy busy this time of the year and just way to over crowded ….

So not sure what you two muppets have been doing today but I am sure it was full of fun and smiles …. I hope you two are being good boys for mum because that’s what Santa checks on before he comes to see you next week… I hope as I said yesterday you got some extra carrots for Rudolf and his friends … O and some Amarula for Santa , maybe not the best idea , sorry ,milk maybe a better options as I am sure Santa will not see a drop of the Amarula if mum knows it’s in the house , lol

Well boys I hope you are safe , happy warm and well looked after …. I will see you both again tonight under our big old green tree in dream land … Can’t wait to give you both the biggest double bear cuddle in the world and to tell you both how much I love and miss you …

Night , night pals , happy festive dreams….

I miss and love you both truck loads full…..

Love you champs …

Dad xx

Hello little men!

How are my little pals today ? I really hope well..

Well today a week Santa is coming to visit you both…. I bet you two are so excited … Would have loved to share in it with you both , but I guess that is not meant to be….

Boys you two missed such an amazing storm here last night , I can’t remember ever seeing rain like that ever in my life , we were sitting outside on the patio and it felt like we were inside a cave behind a waterfall that’s how heavy the rain was , everything feels so clean , fresh and bright today , it’s amazing , not sure why rain lifts our spirits so much in Africa but people seem happier and more energetic today as the day before , always amuses me to see….

I went to the mall today for some shopping , must admit not the best idea of the day , parking was a nightmare but then once I got inside the mall it did not seem that busy , so not sure where all the people were , lol…

Ouma’s cleaner is here now today I guess for the last time before the Christmas break so the house is turned upside down to get ready for Christmas , I guess Ouma’s biggest concern is laundry as she does not iron , lol , I guess that is an African thing again , must admit I have never touched an iron in my life either , I guess you two growing up in the UK with a mum that wants to live of state benefits you two will never have the luxury of having home support….

So I guess you two must just be clowning around getting ready for Santa now , whatever you two are doing I hope you are having loads of fun and lots of Christmas spirit ….

I guess mum would have gone to get you your new pj’s for Christmas Eve as she likes to do , never got that one to be honest but I guess we all have our silly family traditions , just so sorry you two will never get to share or experience any of my family … Maybe one day when you both are old enough to stand your ground against mum and Steve …

I still have not heard from your Solicitor to confirm if she has received the new court applications but at least the court has confirmed they got it so I assume all is in hand for round two of the contact battle to begin in Feb next year.

Well little boys I miss you both extra today not sure why , I guess it’s the realisation of being a week away from Christmas and I know I will not be allowed to see you or speak to you to wish you both a very Merry Christmas…. Going to be a hard couple of days … But I guess onwards and upwards and hope for some resolution on seeing you both in a normal environment one day…..

As always my little champs I hope to see you both a little later under our big old green African tree for our daily dream land meeting , can’t wait to hold you both and tell you how much I miss and love you both each day ……

Night , night little pals sweet warm happy Santa dreams , O and don’t forget you need to start getting your carrots ready for Rudolf , sure he will be starving by the time they hit Chester next week…

I love you both huge Santa slays full………

Love you little men….

Dad xx

Hello Little Men!

How are my Champs doing today? I hope great…

The picture is care of Ouma again as she knows how much you both love Lion King , I need to try and see if I can get you the DVD in Zulu , I remember I went to the premiere in Pretoria when I was at university with friends , strange I still remember the chills from the surround sound in the cinema …. Funny how you remember silly little things like that, in total I think I must have seen the movie more than 20 times , lol , I guess you two must have well exceeded my record by now….

Well boys all the Court stuff is done and posted and emailed , the Court has already confirmed that they have received all six the emails , lol yes I know six is a lot but it is once again so many pages of evidence it was the only way of emailing it in batches…. So I guess now it is wait and see again what the future holds for us 3 and our possible relationship. Well I guess to be honest it can’t get any worse than what we have now ……

So what have you two silly Billy’s been doing today ? It’s such a nice day here again you two would have loved it , I guess the UK is not so great at the moment but I hope you both are wrapped up warm and cosy and at least able to have some indoor fun at the soft play …. You might even have a white Christmas as we had not seen any snow the past 2 years over the holidays … Should be fun to make a snow man again like we did in Feb this year in Horsham after that big snow , lol I still remember how cold you little hands were with the gloves but you did not want to come inside and just wanted to keep jumping on the soft snow ….. Good times hey boys …. Maybe one day again who know …. Let’s hope ….

So I am done with work now I think until next year , as I said I am looking forward to a good break after all that has gone on this year , just makes me really sad that I am not given the opportunity by mum to spend a little quality time with you both over my holidays …. I guess all part of her plan to make sure you two don’t know who I am , a bit silly and sad if you ask me , but hey that’s mum her way or no way as always……

Well little pals I really hope to see you both a little later under our big old green tree in dream land … Can’t wait to hear all about your day and give you both a double bear cuddle up side down… Makes me smile just thinking about it …. See you both a little later…

Boys I miss and love you both so , so much , please always know that…

Love you both ThiiiiiiiiiSsssssss much and more ……

Love you champs always….

Dad xx

Hello Boys!

Hope you two are doing great today !

The picture is from Ouma again , she thought you two would love it….

So been a lazy day here with the public holiday … Must admit I forgot that today was a public holiday until Ouma reminded me ….

The country is so in holiday mode it is scary … Guess I have lost touch with how big the holidays are this time of the year here ….

I have a couple of works things to sort tomorrow but then I guess it is holidays for me now also until the first week in Jan … I must admit I am looking forward to a good break , can’t remember when last I have had more than a couple of days of work … Not sure what I am going to do with myself , lol , should have lots of free time to work on your blog…..

So not sure what you two have been doing today but I hope it was fun and that you kept busy as little men should ….

I hope you two are helping mum getting the house and all the stuff ready for the holidays as it can’t be a easy job knowing you two little monkeys ….lol

Well champs whatever you get up to this week I hope it’s fun , maybe mum will take you to go see Santa and Rudolf so you can give them your lists …. Don’t be scared of him … He is your friend … Lol

As always pals I hope to see you both a little later under our big old green tree in dream land …. So ready for my little man double bear cuddles and smiles … I can’t wait…

Night , night champs … Sweet happy place dreams ..

I love and miss you both so very much ….

Love you both to the moon and back ……

Love you pals …

Dad xx

Hello little men!

Hope you two are well..

I had to share this picture with you , Ouma found it among my Ouma’s stuff , not sure why she kept this picture always , Ouma has added the little photo’s of you both to the tree.. Hope you get to see her scrap books one day they tell such a lovely story of you both and our family whom I guess you will never get to meet or know….

Thinking back this might be where my reference to the big old green tree comes from , maybe my Ouma use to tell me about it thus I remember the reference all this time , a bit strange for this picture to come to light today as I do not recall ever seeing it before today , I guess it just shows how some things stick with you from childhood memories….

Boys I can’t believe how hot it is here today , I think summer might be here in all it’s glory today…I have spent this morning watching Madiba’s funeral , I am sure you two will learn about him in school as I don’t think the world has ever had such a loved person who was able to touch the hearts and soles of each and every person in the world … I think there has and never will be again a role model quite like him…. A very sad day for South Africa and the World ….

O I have also prepared all the new stuff and additional evidence for the Court today so hope to send that all out tomorrow also if I get time , court has still not confirmed when we can submit the new psychologist report , so I guess I will have to chase them next week again.

So what have you two been doing today ? I hope it has not been to cold to go do some fun things outside ….. Must admit I have not seen the UK weather today , so I hope it is oki doki…

Going into the City tomorrow to do some retail visits , blessing is that the traffic should be great as the whole South Africa I think should be at the beach by then …. Welcome to Summer a Holidays in Africa ……

So I guess you two don’t have school next week so I hope mum has lots of fun things lined up for you to do before Santa comes to see you both…. I bet you two must be so excited , would have loved to see it or even maybe share in a little of it with you both …. I guess maybe one day hey boys …..

Well whatever you do next week I hope it will be fantastic fun and be safe ! O and wear your jacket please Oscar …. Lol,

So little champs as always and it seems even longer than that I hope to see you both a little later under our big old green tree in dream land , can’t wait for my huge double O cuddles and smiles….

I love and miss you boys so much each day , don’t know how to put it into words…..

Night , night , pals , happy , happy dreams …..

Love and miss you both to the moon , sun and stars and back ……..

Love you Champs …..

Dad xx

Hello Little O’s

How are you two doing on this Friday the 13th , lol I hope fantastic and that you have seen no black cats … lol

Well the weekend is almost here , must say it has been a long week all and all so looking forward to the weekend. I guess Ouma and I will have to start doing the Christmas shopping now that I know I am not allowed to see you two on Christmas day, I guess I will keep your gifts then until I possible get to see you under guard in Feb before we go to Court again, guess I will have to bring your Birthday gift also then as I am sure mum will also not allow me to see you in May on your Birthday so I will plan ahead as I always do..lol

I think I am going to make a peppermint-crisp-tart as I have not had one in ages , you two would absolutely love it ,it  is a very South African treat , not very healthy so we can’t eat it more than once a year or we will be in big trouble or need bigger trousers, lol , I hope one day you two will get to taste it , its heaven on a plate as they say..

O and I guess the big meat shop also has to start as in South Africa as they say Christmas is not Christmas without 5 types of meat ,and that does not include turkey as we don’t eat turkey as a rule , not sure why we just never have…

So I guess you two must have lots of plans for the weekend with mum also in the run up to your holidays, hope you are not going to be stuck in the shopping trolley all the time this weekend , maybe you are going to the Zoo again , but then I guess it must be getting way to cold outside now for you two and the animals unless Oscar will offer them his coat again hey Oliver as he surely does not like wearing it …… well boys whatever it is you are going to get up to this weekend , I hope it will be lots of fun and safe .. no drinking and driving you two !!! LOL not even in your Little Tikes trucks please …. its a bad time of the year even on the play roads you two drive on ….

More than the big shopping trip I don’t have much plans, might see Jaco , Janine and Jayden O and don’t forget missy ( the puppy) she is gorgeous , you two I think will go mad for her, would love to get you two a puppy but I know mum will go mad and probably have it put down rather than for you two have a little friends staying with you in your room.

I told Ouma I want to get her a new puppy also as hers was 15 years old last week , he was called HOUCH but got very sick a month ago and they had to let him be put down because he was so old , but I think between the grief of loosing contact 100% with you both and HOUCH they are not doing so great on the loss of things they loved side … but she is not having it ….

Well boys I hope you two had a good ( I think) last day at school and was able to say Happy Holidays to all you little friends….

As always pals I hope to see you both later under our big old green tree in dream land , I guess by tonight Santa would have put up the Christmas lights and decoration on this tree also , so should be lovely and festive ,cant wait for my double O bear dream cuddles and smiles……

Night , Night Champs . Happy pre- Christmas Holiday dreams …..

I miss and love you both so very much each and every day …….

Love you both 100000000 times around the world and back and more ….

Love you pals …

Dad xx