Hello Little Men !

I hope you both are doing very well and enjoy being back at play school now again ! 🙂

I wrote this last night but it seems to have not posted for some reason.

I know it has been a while since I wrote to you both but I guess as I have and always will wear my heart on my sleeve I had to get my thoughts in order , as you both know when I am emotional about the situation I get called crazy , when I try and me strong and firm I get called unemotional , so what is right or wrong , I am unsure off.

I have taken some hard decisions over the past couple of weeks , again are they the right ones , I am unsure off.

As you both would have read Peter Morey from Cafcass stands firm in his support of your name change but in contradiction he does not support the removal of parental rights and responsibilities , now this makes zero sense to me as this man has since June 2013 refused that I exercise any right or responsibilities regarding you both … Thus I have taken the decision and have informed him and the Court that should he and them continue to support the name change I will have to insist that all and any parental rights and responsibilities be removed and as such have asked Andie your solicitor to prepare the paper work for me to sign in this regard , now this might sound harsh but to be honest in 18 months these rights have been denied on each and every level thus they carry no weight.

I am unsure what the agenda from Cafcass is in this regard but can only assume it is based on the fact that the divorce proceedings are stayed and these right might help the surrogate to manipulate a Court settlement should the divorce every go ahead and this I will not allow them the luxury to have , the Barrister feels the agenda also might be that Cafcass does have concerns re the surrogate and her family and needs a plan B when the time comes …I am not sure …

So Champs , all I would like to say to you both today , you have been and always will be well provided for financially but this unfortunately will only help you both when you are older and are able to emancipate yourselves from the surrogate and all and any member of the McClure’s and their extended family.

When the time comes you will be contacted and offered the choice in this regard by the estate , unfortunately I and my parents have had to place some conditions in this regards however , the main one of course is that if you are not Oliver and Oscar Ferreira this will be seen as a breach of the trust conditions , should this be the case all cash , assets etc. will be donated to the main animal rescue charity in South Africa within an agreed period.

Boys I do know that people will think this is mad and cruel but under the current circumstances it’s the prudent thing to do , thus leaving you both with a choice to know and understand the truth should you wish to do so.

I would have really loved to see you both for a bit while I am in the UK in 2 weeks time but again this is not being allowed by the surrogate as per normal , so from myself , Ouma and Oupa I just want to say we miss you both loads and will always love you and carry our memories of you both in our hearts , as Ouma told me this week you will never be forgotten , the pain and grief will never go away …..

As I said the last time I wrote you both in August , I will continue to write to Oliver and Oscar Ferreira from time to time , we endeavour to never miss a birthday or Christmas but I guess this blog will just be written for two little boys who on paper will not exist any more ….

So Little Men , be happy and know nothing is ever impossible ….

Love you both around the world and back a billion times and miss you much more than that..

Hope to always see you both each night under our big old green tree in dreamland for some dream cuddles …..

Love you Champs ….always …..

Phill xoxo