Hello Champs ..
Well it is 4 am local time here , I have been lying in bed for hours trying to sleep but no such luck ….
I think the call to prayers from the mosque close by will start shortly as the sun is starting to show on the horizon .. Not sure why but the call seems to give me calm and I guess hope each morning the past 3 weeks while I have been here , strange as it is something that I have always been aware off whiles living in the Middle East but have never found my self lying awake waiting for it ,almost as if it is a signal to start again , keep positive and never give up on what is right …..
Just been checking my Facebook page and the admin groups , boys you both would be so proud and pleased with all the lovely comments and messages of support received for you both on your birthday yesterday , I think that the one that hit home the most was from an old school friend whom I have not seen for years , she told me she reads your blog daily and that it gives her inspiration and hope ….maybe my heart was just shattered yesterday as it felt to me , like what’s the point , why keep doing it , most people think I am a nutter because of this blog , but as I told her, to me this blog gives me a couple of minutes with you both each day , and yes I know that is not really the case and yes I am aware you might never get to read it or even that you decide not to read it… Be that as it may , this comment made me realise again that even if we can help one little one , mum or dad then our pain had some purpose , more than just a daddy writing to his little boys because he miss them so much each and every day ….
Thus the question I have been struggling with the past couple of weeks of should I pull the plug on this blog and stop putting myself through the torture each day was answered last night …keep writing …. Keep sharing our story in the hope that it makes a diffidence maybe not to us 3 but to someone , somewhere , some day …….
I do hope you muppets are far away in dreamland now and having happy dreams of the day just gone past and that you ate safe …….
Love and miss you both so much Little Men ….always …
Dad xx
The Story of my Twin Boys Oliver and Oscar Ferreira 
Know that feeling!!
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There is a purpose to this; there always is…….you just don’t see it yet. I understand how writing helps and the need to have something good, anything good come from so much pain. I was given that gift through my blog. I don’t know how I would have made it through some days without the comments and encouragement from people who read my ramblings.
Don’t stop writing, you never know who it will help, who will read it, the lives that could be changed by it. Do what your heart tells you and you will not go wrong. I always figure if you do something honestly and with honorable intention it can never be wrong; some people may not like it but it is not wrong. People should never be afraid to tell the truth, those that are afraid of the truth have something to hide, plain and simple.
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Thank you very much for your kind words of encouragement as always Carrie 🙂 xoxo
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I hope the you are not considering ‘pulling the plug’ on your blog simply by the comments made from the courts. I do have one thing to say….it’s funny how in the paperwork with the courts your Blog is mentioned, why are these people reading it? You are VERY transparent with this blog, yet the women who has custody of YOUR children wants to keep you in the dark about EVERYTHING. I don’t get it.! There are countless blogs about parent’s blogging about their children, yes, even cases like yours. Why should you be condemned and held in contempt for expressing YOUR words, thoughts and feelings? I could go on and on, but I won’t. It is the sheer ignorance of the people involved in your case that cannot recognize this blog is not only a form of communication for you to your son’s, but you also post very informative information to help other parent’s in the same situation. Do what is in YOUR heart Phill…. ❤
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Hi Tela , thank you so much for your kind words of encouragement, I guess it comes down to the fact that the Court and Mum does not want or like the truth , but if we don’t speak up more and more families are destroyed daily by these people , yes I am torn on what to do , but I have had such great messages from people who read the blog and the Facebook pages that it’s clear our story is giving people the guts to speak up , which is great , I just don’t know if it will help me to have contact with our boys again one day , maybe , maybe not , I guess only time will tell , so for now we soldier on and hope logic kicks in at some stage xoxox 🙂
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