Good afternoon little men…
Hope you both are doing well… Just got to my hotel , must say it’s such a bright nice crisp cool day , hope you two had some outside playtime and not just locked in by your care giver in the hostage house….
Just got a letter from your school to say your care giver has agreed for you to be removed from the school , boys how stupid is this women , all I have been asking for since July is details of the school and to visit it , she says today that I was never involved in choosing your last two school , then I must have been drunk as she took me on both occasions to the ones she had short listed and then we decided which one would be best for you , both your previous schools can confirm this was the case , I also signed the papers for both the other schools but she had in her drunken state fed the new school so much rubbish and now that they know the truth about her they are obviously not willing to have her on the grounds as she is a risk to the other children and a child abuser as you both well know b now….
I see she had filed new applications at the Court today to say I abuse you and she wants to change your names to McClure and that I have no contact ever again with you both! Nice “mother” you have little men… I think she had now lost the plot totally , as I said in my Scott’s schedule to the Court last year where does she think you both came from ? I did not see the stork in a tree outside the hospital on 20 May 2011 , unless I missed him !
I just hope all the people can now start to see what I have been dealing with the past 11 months as her story changes each day , I hear I threatened your GP also , this is news to me I requested copies of your medical records to have proof of the physical abuse recorded by the doctor while you both have been in her care , the GP refused to provide the information as your care giver was in fact the one that threatened them should they provide me with your details …
She had a long delusional story about the hospital also , but again she forgets who caused that issue by not taking you to the hospital when they had the bed ready for your operations as it did not suite the control freak at that stage , the hospital has to date never come back to me nor did I ever speak to them again , I tried but your doctor refused to phone me back as your care giver also threatened her it seems ….again I am the bad guy …..
Boys I have no clue how this will end , I am just very sorry that you both are stuck in the care of the child abuser and the Court seems happy with that….
As expected your care giver has not come up with contact arrangements for tomorrow as per the Court order as she is to busy licking her wounds as it seems the truth is starting to hit home with her ….only took 11 months , maybe she is starting to sober up , O before I forget she told Peter Morey on 10 Feb she had no stress and as happy as Larry but yet today in the new round of court applications she is claiming that she now has to get treatments for post traumatic stress syndrome , funny that I have been getting that treatment since first week in May last year , I have lost over 35 kg because of it but no one seems to take note of the stress this crazy women is causing you both , me and my family , it’s all her and only her ad always , nothing changes…….guess that is why people say she now looks like a old gag……
Well little men , I will see you both a little later under our big old green tree in dream land , have brought some nice warm African cuddles……
Night , night little men , happy dreams …..
Love you both truck loads full and miss you more …..
Love you champs ….
Dad xx
The Story of my Twin Boys Oliver and Oscar Ferreira 
Dear Phill ,
It is with a sense of complete bewilderment that I find myself trying to write some words that can attempt to calm what I see as a situation that has completely spiralled out of control .
I am sure that despite you saying you would not censor comments, that this is indeed what you will do (as in my previous posting) and you will not publish my comment.
Sadly there can only be losers in this horrific picture that you have painted- unfortunately I fear you have destroyed any hope of a relationship with your children either from their point of view or that of the judicial system.
Your story initially intrigued me as one of a concerned father who wanted to cement a relationship for the future with his 2 sons- this is far from what you have achieved. You seem to have used your ‘sons’ to battle with your ex wife and in so doing have exposed yourself to them as a vindictive, self absorbed and unpredictable /unstable individual who in all honesty should never be allowed access until your emotional/mental health needs are not only addressed but remedied- sadly the type of needs that you are displaying are rarely rectified and I would therefore doubt that any court would continue to grant you access.
You fail to demonstrate consistency in your postings…. your comments regarding the boys’ mother have gone from ‘mummy’ to ‘mother’ , to ‘care-giver’ to ‘ ‘surrogate’.
As you have affirmed to me via e-mail that neither you nor your ex wife are biologically linked to the children I find you comments regarding ‘the stork’ today most bizarre. Your reference to the beginnings of your story in Greece lead me to believe that such donors were located abroad. You seem to be extremely keen to let your ‘boys’ know that their mother is not biologically linked to their mother- why then do you not admit the same absence of link- you are lying to yourself it would seem. Are you so uncomfortable with the route that you have taken – are you embarrassed by your own lack of fertility ? I feel this needs further exploration- perhaps your current therapist should pick this up- if indeed you have notified them of this detail.
I also note from today’s postings that you intend to visit your boys for 2 hours- yet you have vehemently stated elsewhere that you will not do this in a contact centre- what is it that you actually DO want ?
Today’s blog states that your ex has agreed to remove your children from school and that this was not actually what you wanted- I firmly believe that you are not telling the entire truth on this. I urge you to think from the perspective of the school (who I imagine must read this blog as you have copied in so many members of children’s services – it would be hard for them to ignore from a risk assessment basis). Think… you threaten to set yourself on fire when you visit the children’s school – would any responsible nursery allow their charges to be witness to such an action ? I suspect that the school will have made the decision that to continue to keep the children at school would pose too much of a risk to other children. You have stated several times that you do not feel this school can deliver for your children – I therefore make the assumption that you wished for this action and that you are fully aware of the emotional trauma this would cause your boys. I imagine that they will find the separation from their peers enormously traumatic and the rejection experience will live with them for many years- remembering that they have already (for whatever reason) suffered the loss of a parent- you have set them up for a lifetime of failure/rejection. This is such a saddening tale for which you must take responsibility.
I also refer to your previous posts about starting children in nursery education from the age of 8/9 months and your reference to the use of domestic staff- this concerns me as to your understanding regarding what a parent actually is . You state that you previously paid £3000 /month on tax etc- and your constant reference to your ex wife being able to bring in an income – this leads me to believe that your views on parenting are largely on the financial provision for them and you have neglected the social/emotional side- this will be considered in future access.
I hope that you will listen to my analysis of your current situation and take positive action- although sadly I fear that the damage now caused and that which you intend to wreak by allowing access to your blog in the future and publicly publish all the details of your court hearing (will it actually be all or will you censor those parts you do not wish them to see – ie genetics ?) .
Sadly I see too many cases like yours and if I were involved in your case, I’m afraid I would seek to also remove parental rights as you seem incapable of making the right ones for your children.
Regards
Emma
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Hi Emma,
Thank you for your post as always , the reason why I have said I will post all the docs in actually to show the boys the truth and that I am not a nutter , by the way got the psychologist report to confirm this now also,
I will approve your post as I have no shame in this issue but have been trying to protect the boys and the care giver.
O , you can take what I say out of context as much as Cafcass ,I at no point said I will set my self on fire at the school , I asked the court if I have to do this to get them to open their eyes at court,
Hope you are well,
Speak soon,
Phill
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