Hello Champs ..

Well it is 4 am local time here , I have been lying in bed for hours trying to sleep but no such luck ….

I think the call to prayers from the mosque close by will start shortly as the sun is starting to show on the horizon .. Not sure why but the call seems to give me calm and I guess hope each morning the past 3 weeks while I have been here , strange as it is something that I have always been aware off whiles living in the Middle East but have never found my self lying awake waiting for it ,almost as if it is a signal to start again , keep positive and never give up on what is right …..

Just been checking my Facebook page and the admin groups , boys you both would be so proud and pleased with all the lovely comments and messages of support received for you both on your birthday yesterday , I think that the one that hit home the most was from an old school friend whom I have not seen for years , she told me she reads your blog daily and that it gives her inspiration and hope ….maybe my heart was just shattered yesterday as it felt to me , like what’s the point , why keep doing it , most people think I am a nutter because of this blog , but as I told her, to me this blog gives me a couple of minutes with you both each day , and yes I know that is not really the case and yes I am aware you might never get to read it or even that you decide not to read it… Be that as it may , this comment made me realise again that even if we can help one little one , mum or dad then our pain had some purpose , more than just a daddy writing to his little boys because he miss them so much each and every day ….

Thus the question I have been struggling with the past couple of weeks of should I pull the plug on this blog and stop putting myself through the torture each day was answered last night …keep writing …. Keep sharing our story in the hope that it makes a diffidence maybe not to us 3 but to someone , somewhere , some day …….

I do hope you muppets are far away in dreamland now and having happy dreams of the day just gone past and that you ate safe …….

Love and miss you both so much Little Men ….always …

Dad xx

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Happy , happy Birthday once more ! Xxx

A very Happy Birthday to my a Oliver and Oscar!

Sorry I am not allowed to share in your day or even say hello, but just know I am there watching over you both always …..

My wish for you both is happiness and normal times for us 3 in the future …..

Have a fantastic day muppets whatever you are allowed to do !

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Love you Birthday Boys …lots and lots …..big Birthday dream cyber cuddles for you both ….

Dad xx

20th May 2014

Good morning Little “O”s

We know you will not be allowed to speak to us today
but nevertheless….

We wish we were with you…..
Celebrating your special day….
We want you to know……
You are in our thoughts……
Night and day……
Wishing you happiness and success always….

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LITTLE “O”S

Love Oupa and Ouma
From a far, far away country xxxxxx

Good evening my almost not so little Men!

I hope you both are doing very well today !

I must tell you both a funny story , obviously Ouma and Oupa will not get to see you or be allowed to speak with you tomorrow on your birthday so same as the past 2 years they decided to have a party for you , but this year they did it today to allow them to email me some pictures etc they want me to post on your blog for you both tomorrow , well around midday I get the pictures from Ouma but I did not check , 10 min later she emails me to say don’t use the pictures , so this surprised me , thus I had to take a look , well , they had the table all made up , took some photos and packed it all away after having some of the snacks , when Oupa looked at the photos , he saw they spelled your name wrong Oliver they called you Olivier , well the 2 of them spent the next 2 hours to fix the cake so you will get two sets of pics tomorrow but you will see some of the snacks missing and the table decorated differently …lol , I almost wet myself now when Ouma told me the whole story on Skype …

Oupa said to tell you Oliver the Court does not have to change your name now , the baker already did so , 🙂

I have just had to get your things ready for posting on the blog early tomorrow ……. And yes I had the cub cakes for my dinner now after the message making lol 🙂 ….

Well my almost 3 year old Champs I hope you get to bed early and have a good nights sleeps as I am sure you are mega excited for your big day ! So I will see you muppets shortly under our big old green tree in dreamland for some pre birthday dream cuddles ….

Night , night Champs , big dreams of a fun day ahead tomorrow ….

I love you both so much and words can’t discribe the sadness knowing I will not be allowed to say hello to you both tomorrow …..breaks my heart ….

Love you Big Little Men …..always …

Dad xx