Hello little men!

Hope you both are doing great today ! Start of a new week….

Been a bit of a mad day here to be honest , least the container has been sorted, I guess I need to decide what to do with all your things….. I promise I will try and find a good home for them where little ones will get some fun out of them , still breaks my heart knowing you both will never get to play or use any of it again…..

Boys you would have seen a comment from a nice lady called Barbs, things like that makes me realise that our fight and issues are nothing compared to what other families are dealing with … She makes a valid point in her comment , What have I done ? to be allowed to only see you both four times a year for two hours at a time , the honest answer is nothing , but to fight to try and have a normal relationship with you both and for doing that you both are being kept away from me …….. I some days think if I gave in and allowed your care giver and her spokesperson to bully me and get their way if I would still be a part of your lives , should I have paid the blackmail and just have rolled over and let them continue to lie to get legal aid and housing, try to get me arrested for asking how you both are and what they want to do with her stuff?? Again maybe I am crazy…..as it seems I am the only person in this process that have and can see what these people are trying to do to you both !…….

Don’t get me wrong I know you both might never get to read this or you might be so brainwashed that you do not want to know me …..that is a risk I have no choice but to take at this point as I need you both to know I have and never will stop the fight to have contact with you until the day you both tell me you don’t want that anymore………

Sorry champs I digress,

Just wanted to check that you both are well and say hello , hope you both had a good fun filled day as little men should…….

Still no news from the contact centre so I am sorry to say that it seems that I might not get to see you both at the end of this month as agreed……..but what do I do boys your care giver is playing the game and Cafcass and your solicitor keeps supporting this because I am crazy remember…….

As each night pals I will see you both a little later under our big old green tree in dream land , can’t wait for my double O cuddles……

Night , night little men…..dream of happy normal days please …..

Love you both truck loads and trailers full and miss you more …

Love you little men, always ……

Dad xx